AND LIFE GOES ON. .

after my dad died, everything changed..

my life, mums’, pooz, mikes’ even my daughter.

its hard to be away from the family, we’ve always been together for so long, i always have someone to talk to everytime i go home from work but now all i ever talk to is my anti-social cat, i even miss my dad’s presence. he would be like waiting for me at the back of our house then tell me ‘oh ada, pagod ka? dun ka na matulog sa kwarto tapos buksan mo yung aircon.’ i miss him so much. besides andre and my mom, he’s the only one i could really talk to. masarap makipag-debate sa kanya, most of the time we do that kapag hinahatid niya ako sa work. yes, im a grown woman na hinahatid ng daddy..hehehe ngayon ko lang na-realize ang importance of having a dad around. kasi before i used to resent my dad. i would always think na sana wala nako sa house, or gusto ko ng lumayas. pero now, i hate to admit it pero i miss them terribly..even pooz.. i miss having 3meals a day, the sound of the tv in the afternoon, madie’s pangungulit, yca’s panghihingi, mike’s pang-aasar, everything..

and my life right now? yes, its beginning to get so depressing. im always alone. kahit na simple problem with the electric fan diko pa maayos. i dont like myself being depressed. ive been there, and its coming back. i know i have andre, but not always.. and i am inlove with him.. but now that his parents and my mum knows about us, its beginning to get difficult and may limitations na. i know we’ll both survive this kasi we love each other naman.

ok, eto nalang muna for now. til next time. (",)