hands on. . .

maraming tao ang nagtatanong. . . pano ba maging isang ina? aba, eh malay ko, basta ang alam ko mahalin mo ang anak mo ng higit pa sa buhay mo..

christienne angelyca day querubin was born on april 9 2001, 6.6lbs and ???ounces hehehe. . she was truly an angel cos all she ever did was sleep when she was little. nung 1yr old siya di na siya nagfoformula feed, actually milo na talaga gusto niya drink eversince, hanggang ngayon milo parin :)
she is cute, sweet to all people (kahit di niya kilala hinuhug parin niya), makulet in some ways, and she definitely knows what she wants. wala akong kahirap-hirap sa pagaalaga sa kanya because she's very easy to manage.

when i was still pregnant, i was very very moody. nagagalit ako sa lahat ng bagay, even to the people around me, sobrang naiirita ako. and at that time i was still struggling kasi nag-aaral pa ako sa college nung preggy pako, so it was really hard. thank god for papi kasi hinahatid nya ako pag may time siya. and thankfully kasi na-survive ko ang college with a huge belly :)

seeing her grow up, makes me think of the future to come, should i be strict or lenient? pero ive decided to be balanced. no more marshall law for the kids kasi we were raised that way where what is right is right and what is wrong is definitely wrong without even educating us why is the situation wrong in the first place. i dont want to make the same mistakes my parents did when they raised me. i know they love and all but giving us material things wont satisfy a kid, in a way masasatisfy parin, pero panandalian lang.

and i am truly proud of her kasi she is growing up already and she is truly smart, she knows how life goes at an early age of 7. she knows how to get disappointed, she knows how to take care of her little cousin maddie, and she definitely knows how to love. there are times na talagang matigas ang ulo niya, well bata eh, they have the priveledge to be that way, pero kapag napapagsabihan siya alam niya agad ang pagkakamali niya. there are times na natutulala siya, waiting for me to come home, and there are times na kung minsan sobra ang kulit niya. well kanino pa siya magmamana kundi sakin lang :)

im proud of her because she knows how to accept people, she knows how to talk to them. she has seen some of my men in my life before and now, some kids would be a brat to them pero iba si yca, malambing all the way. thats why some of my exes?? they dont miss me, they miss my kid. she has an overwhelming charm and wit, although sometimes tamad, namimili ng food na kakainin, sometimes nagkakatantrums din, but hey, aren't we all?


she is growing up i know, and she is growing up way too fast and pretty too, my fears is swelling up as i watch her, pero with good guidance and education on how life is, i would say kaya ni yca yan, she is way more better and way smarter than me (i admit) hehehe.. i have alot of shortcomings when it comes to raising her and guiding her, but i am trying my best to be the mom she wants me to be, and i always tell her every single day that i love her so much and that everything will be alright.

one day she was telling me that she wanted to be something big someday, i just told her that if you want to achieve something you have to do your best para marating mo ang gusto mong marating, dont be like mum i tell her, why? because yca is a dreamer, not like everybody else in the family even me, she would tell me she wanted to be a model or she wanted to have a huge house with lots of toys with maddie, thats what i like about this kid, hindi siya madamot, she always share what she has and never cease to please everyone. pag may kasalanan siya, ill know right away because it was way too obvious sa face niya na may ginawa siyang kalokohan.

i dont have any regrets in having, i admit sometimes it crossed my mind what if i dont her? will i be truly happy? that was before. .but now? mawala lang siya ng ilang minuto without me knowing nagaalala na talaga ako as in sobra, mega iyak ako.theres this one incident sa megamall na nawala siya, i mean god, megamall is such a huge place, so being a worrier that i am mega iyak nanaman me habang naghahanap.hahahaha! my dad was so angry sa yaya niya at that time, i looked everywhere, yca was only 3 at that time by the way, i looked and looked, but i remember she keeps on telling me that day that she wanted to eat at mcdonalds. so i went to mcdonalds and saw her sitting on that mcdonalds bench talking to that mcdonalds statue. grabe i was so relieved when i saw her. when she saw me all she said was "kain tayo mommy". .

when she started school, i have no problems with her in gaining friends whatsoever. she was a natural. she way friendly, madaldal, she keeps on smiling, she's always hungry and she really wanted to go to school. there are times na lazy siya gumawa ng homework before but now, hindi na masyado. sometimes i help her whenever i can, pero pag sa math talaga, nako sa iba nalang siya talaga nagpapaturo because wala rin akong alam and she knows that too.hahahaha!
before i dont know how to manage her when she started school, so i seek help from my mom and my sister, and they helped talaga. thats why im thankful to them kahit na sometimes kulang parin ako.

she is my angel, i have alot of things to learn in raising a child and i can learn from her. we may have some tough times ahead but i know she'll grow up as a beautiful lady inside and out because all the people who know her truly loves her so much and i see that she is thankful to them and so am i.